Stuck… 

You know that feeling… when your continually working, pushing uphill, being consistent, even gaining some momentum… but then it starts to feel heavy again. You don’t necessarily roll backwards, but you stop, put it in park – maybe even hit the emergency break. 

It’s that feeling of the voice inside you that wants to be further, that wants the bigger picture, right now! 

But maybe I’m doing it wrong…

Hold on – just stay stopped for a moment.

 

On Friday, I came to a gradual stop. And just sat there for awhile.

Looking back, I had been working like crazy the past few weeks – creating and building parts and pieces every day, in every minute of time to spare – maybe even some I shouldn’t have spared… 

And, yes – I was excited – proud even – of what I had created so far with my business – both personally and professionally.

But… I wasn’t quite where I wanted to be… 

 

Refocus

Where did I want to be? But, more importantly, what did I need, right now?

I’d be lying if I said there weren’t a few tears at first – also a part of what I needed in the moment. I mean, I was pouring myself into this – the creative process and development – I was bound to get to a point of overwhelm, of there being an exhaustion deep within me to slow down and rest – just for a minute… 

So, there were two things I did this weekend – both good and bad… 

1) I re-created my space

It literally took me an eight-hour-plus day to go through, purge, organize, and redesign our living room – part of which is my corner of the room – a.k.a. my office. SOOO tiring – yet, such an accomplishing feeling to complete the transformation AND to have a newly-designed creative space that I had been so deeply desiring for so long!

2) I rested… but spent a LOT of time browsing Instagram

Being the visual-creative I am, I love Instagram! I started searching through hashtags of artists to follow, and I was drawn in! The colors! The paintings! The mixed-mediums of creative pieces!

They were beautiful! 

I felt inspired to start creating my art again in my newly-designed creative space! But, what should I start with?

I kept browsing…

It was like I had stopped, got out of the parked car, and started wandering down the nearby side-street. But I was window-shopping…

Her paintings are amazing!! She totally has developed her own style! She’s a true artists!… I want to be like that… as good as her… I want to be her…

I got lost down the side-street…

Now, don’t get me wrong! You have to window-shop – see others’ ideas and gain inspiration! But, when you look at beautiful things upon others, and you only see the beauty they exhibit (and their success), you start comparing… you start wanting… you get lost…

When really, you need to step inside, try it on, and see how it really looks on you!

 

Little girl dreams are the deepest…

It was like I had rekindled my little-girl dream of wanting to be an Artist!

Except, my adult-self barked – HOW? How could I be that good? How do I do that? Maybe I should take some classes? I don’t have enough time?…

Sunday was rough… And even Monday morning, I was hungover from my thoughts…

It’s wasn’t until I was listening to a podcast episode on my way to work that morning that really shifted me back into gear and drastically changed my week. It wasn’t even the episode’s message! It was two sentences she said that struck me like the chord of the song that I needed to hear:

“Show yourself love and be gentle.”

And,

“Allow yourself the time to practice to get you to where you want to be – no one started out perfect.” 

Of course, I’d heard both of these a thousand times… but it was all in the timing of this reminder – it was exactly what I needed to hear right then.

I physically felt my body relax into the words. I could feel my eyes open wider in amazement – that “you’re completely right” feeling! That Ah-ha! and Duh! feeling.

 

My Reason to Allow Myself to CreateAllow yourself the gentleness to try things, the time to practice, and the experience to make it completely YOURS!

That night, opened in my new sense of gentleness, I decided to dive in. I broke out my canvas and favorite colors to play with – test – just to try on for size.

While it may not be a signature piece of art worth millions, it’s worth more to me as my reminder to create, allowing myself the gentleness, time, and experience to build my little-girl dream!

p.s. Have you been too hard on yourself lately? We know that we are often our worst critic, but it’s easy to forget how much it can stop you from doing the things you love! You know you need to be gentle and give yourself permission to go for it, right?! I can help you work through those internal blocks! Let’s chat about it!

Schedule your Free Creativity Call  Let’s dig to your inner critic and your little-girl dreams to move you forward with a solid plan! Permission to dream again, granted!

 

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